When I look up
It’s not god or hope I see
It’s my world
Crashing down
Hit me
Please hit me
Make this end
It hurts more now then it did then
I am truly broken
I can’t live now and I couldn’t then
I will never be free
Free to live
To love
To feel
Take me now and save me from this burning torment of a half life
Take me or save me
Please

skin on skin

inhale

o

o

o

hhh

exhale 

just a thought

deep inside

will we even play

what will it be like

will it be my game or yours

When we touch
Will you be using me
And after
Will you lie

So many sweet words
More rotten then fallen apples
Bastard

I will accept it again
Being used
I liked it

After I will cry
I would have fallen

But someone else will be there
To return me to my tree
You

Oh i wonder

will i have my feast

will you be seated at my table 

dine on me

friends

they pick me up

they carry me

they heal me

when i fall i feel hands grasp me

they stand for me

they save me

if one more tear

falls

from my face

to the floor

let it burn a hole

let me fall

down 

down

to a place where i see

i dont need to waste

my

tears

i will wait

i have wished

i have asked

i hope its not a waste 

to go from everything to nothing

so many lies

im the one bleeding 

now i am dark

i am sad

my blood is black

twisted like the lies i believed 

am i stupid to miss you

i know i am

but revenge is sweet and it is on the cards 

for you and i

i will win

i will conquer

i will not be sad

any longer 

i  am still sad

although i am winning i have lost

if im thinking about you does that mean your thinking about me?